.the struggle.

some days i struggle. if i'm honest, most days i struggle. with what? with the fact that life on earth cannot be what it is in heaven. i struggle because all the tears we cry are not tears of joy - because there's sin and trials - because people are imperfect and they hurt you, whether it's their intent or not - because it's a daily fight to do what's right and to be a better person - because i fail often - because i miss my family - because i cannot sit with my Jesus and have a conversation, face to face.

these are the reasons i struggle and this is today's struggle. listening to this song by Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton brought tears today making me think about how sweet that day will be - when i'll stand forever in the light of His amazing grace. today's struggle is one day closer to tomorrow's sweet promise. fight on, my soul. soon enough, the day will come...

When I get where I'm going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.

I'm gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I'll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Don't cry for me down here.

I'm gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he'll match me step for step,
and I'll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I'll hug his neck.

So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can't answer,
so much work to do.

But when I get where I'm going,
and I see my Maker's face.
I'll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I'm going.
Yeah when I get where I'm going.